50 shades of sheer arrogance and stupidity.

calling it 50 shades just sounds fancy.

How do i begin really? There is a lot of healing journey that isn’t really talked about. What do you mean I’m better when I could clearly see where i am. At times you’re tired of bein the in-between. You’re healing but mostly you are not. It is tiring that there are many voices in my head right now. My thoughts shifting with sentences. Oh, I remember. I need to remove my nail paint.

so much happening around that I am not able to think of one single thing. I’m not old enough but still I see people getting married. Everywhere I go, There’s always someone talking about marriages. Funny how people who did not get to talk are projecting the same onto the next generations. There’s always someone saying that nothing can be stopped when the right time arrives. I wonder how many women were forced into marriages because someone else thought it’s their right time.

Amidst of all of these, you remember yourself. You remember the old you. The one who used to dream. But then, You shut it out because it’s high time you should stop comparing yourself even if it’s with the old you. But, You also remember how she s used to dream In between, all the chaos you start dreaming too. But, marriage feels like throwing away the dreams for the crow. Now, You don’t know hwere to start? or like how to start? Or what to start?

But, If you don’t step into it now, You may never get on this step again. Not with this mindset.